i really don't want this.

Running away, scared, is something that I've noticed I've been doing.
But I want to face my fears.
I want to know why I'm doing this, living like this.
I want to focus on the happy things.
Those things that make me smile and feel okay, those are the things I want to think about. Those are the things I want to live for. Live with. Live like.
Not like this.

No, I really don't want to live like this.