please?

Sometimies it takes somebody elses happiness to make me happy. Or smile.
I don't really know the difference anymore.
Sometimes there's a fuzzy feeling. But it doesn't last very long.
It sometimes feels like I'm walking around with something covering my eyes. And when that's gone, there's still the fog.
But. I. Just. Want. That. Gone.

Please. Please, wont you just disappear?? Wont you go back to wherever you were before this started? Please. Give me my life back....