Beautiful Disaster.

She loves her momma's lemonade
Hates the sounds that goodbyes make
She prays one day she'll find someone to need her
She swears that there's no difference between the lies and compliments
It's all the same if everybody leaves her

And every magazine tells her she's not good enough
The pictures that she sees makes her cry

She would change everything, everything, just ask her
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster
She just needs someone to take her home

She's giving boys what they want
Tries to act so nonchalant
Afraid to see that she's lost her direction
She never stays the same for long
Assuming that she'll get it wrong
Perfect only in her imperfection

She's not a drama queen
She doesn't wanna feel this way
Only 17 and tired, yeah

She would change everything for happy ever after
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster
She just needs someone to take her home

She's just the way she is
But no one's told her that's OK

She would change everything, everything, just ask her
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster.

I really feel as though this song is telling my story. This song is speaking my truth. This song is revealing my soul. And I can't get enough of it.
I'm going to be okay. And I know that. I am okay. Life is okay. Even if I write about things that a crappy or why life is crap for me. It's still okay. And I can still find reason to smile. I'm okay. I'm fortunate. And I'm healthy.
What more could I ask for?
But I still feel like that's not enough... I don't want this feeling. That is a beautiful disaster.