want

I haven't posted anything on here in days.
And I don't know why.
Maybe I'm sick of writing it all out, and reading over and over it and just remembering why I felt that way, or what triggered it.
I want action. And the action I want is something bigger. Something better.
And that only comes from ME pushing forward.
And in order to do that, I mustn't be constantly writing about why I feel so God-damned shit all the time. But I must STAND UP and CHOOSE to press on.
And that's what I'm doing.
And that's what I'm going to continue to do.
Because I just can't live in misery any longer.
And I have to be the one to change things. I want to change things.
I want to.