you know who you are.

I'm sorry that you feel like I can't talk to you. I'm sorry you think I'm lieing to you everytime I say 'I'm okay'. I'm not. I say that because I do feel okay. But honestly, how do you expect me to tell you everything that I write on here without you reading it? It's not that simple to search within myself the words to express over a phone conversation. Writing it out is easier than speaking it out. And when I write, my heart just finds the words, but when I talk, my heart tenses. I don't expect you to understand. Don't get angry. I just need you to understand. I know you don't and that's why I'm trying to let you see why. But I am okay. Don't worry about me. And don't get angry at me for writing about it instead of talking about it. It's just easier that way. And doing it this way actually helps me realize how I'm feeling. I hope you understand...